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Monday, August 06, 2007

I'm sure you've all been wondering what the hell i do with my time since it seems like i rush around a lot.
(actually i don't, i just have twenty four hours to do stuff after stuff after stuff back to back, that's all)
I've been modelling for the BIG is Gorgeous movement!(:

Now i reallyyyy hope Sham doesn't kill me for ruining the suprise but these are only TWO of a whole bunch of daaaamn pretty dresses.

hello Vintage!

ignore the tummy and say, "Hello Diva!"

ANYWAYS
as you can tell, there are dresses for almost any ocassion.
There's pretty, dresses you can match with huge sunhats and go to the beach in,
dresses you can wear for a Saturday afternoon tea,
dresses, like the golden one(with a super high split on the side) which is totally red-carpet worthy and even dresses which scream
iknowyousowannafuckmerightnow.
i'm being completely serious. and oooh! i get to wear one of them dresses(:

The brilliant thing is that, all these dresses look tiny!
well, most of them anyway.
i swear, they look like they'll be JUST NICE for someone baby V's size, and yet, i can fit into them.
Plus, i actually look thinner!
Stop the sniggering okay.

The dresses are absolutely gorgeous, and i'll slip the link in when the pictures are all done(:
from what i could tell, i looked pretty good.

And this is precisely the point,
who says you can't be big and beautiful?
In today's society, everyone wants to be a size zero and everyone's sticking their finger down their throat. I've been there too(i won't deny it worked for a while, i lost 10kg that year)

Of course,
especially on saturday being right beside all the damn hot models like nicolette Sylivia and Jaime,
one feels out of place.
like, ohmygawd, i'm really too fat to do this.
i look good but those hot models would look even better in the dress i'm wearing.
Is there a way i can just, not look fat(because all the dresses are sleeveless.)
Then i realized, that the point would be completely missed!
The dresses are sweet on thin girls and just as good on bigger girls.

Who says big isn't gorgeous? Viva la diva i say!

Anyway, all these gorgeous gorgeous dresses are going at $70/75 and the tops are going at $45/50.
They're reeeaally reeeaally worth it, i'm telling you.
Gives you the boost you're so gonna need and i swear, they make you look just as beautiful as the hot girl right beside you.

Skinny girls can get them and yes, big girls can get them too.
Please please pleaaaaase support this because, it's a really good cause and movement.
I'll send you the link when pictures of the clothes are up(:

So yes, this is exactly what i've been doing recently.
The shoot for Teenage magazine as well as for the website(:
On top of that, there've been rehearsals for the upcoming show which is in about two,
actually, no, fuck.
it's next week already.

I'm not singing anymore, no that bit got given to someone else so i could focus on the acting and modelling.
I was upset, i'll admit. because it's like, she got everything even after she stabbed me and him right in the fucking back.
but i figure, i'm better off at the end of it, you know?
i've got something i'm working for.
my joys aren't based on the events and shows that i have to wait to get offered.
no, i go out and get them myself.

So anyway, i'll be acting and modelling.

In case anyone is the least bit interested, i've figured out recently what i'm gonna be doing with my life.
Yes! gasp! charis thinks about what to do with her freaking life! haha.

After O levels, i'm gonna be doing my SATs, learning conversational mandarin and getting a job.
I'm hoping to go to the US for college and i've talked about it with my parents and stuff.
I'm not gunning for a movie-star life, far from it.
In fact, out of theatre singing and film, i like filming the least.
It's weird in that actually, because film is the easiest way to get noticed.
Every other person in the world watches TV/movies but i realized, i'm really really in love with the stage.
Musicals kind of stuff.
So, what i wanna do with my life? I want to do something involving acting.
Even being an acting coach/teacher is great.
I'm addicted to gruelling body work and i want to keep doing that for like, the rest of my life, i swear.
Being famous is exactly NOT what i am looking for, it's about doing lots of theatre stuff simply because i love it.
i like short films too because they can get filmed really fast. and by fast, i mean Ten hours to a few days.
haha.
It's not that i don't like filming or being in a movie, if i had the opportunity to,
it's that, i very much prefer theatre.
Not necessarily broadway, but thereabouts(:

OKAY.
there we have it.
soooo no, i'm not planning on going to a JC or poly.

you know, just in case you gave a droplet of shit. haha.

SO i finally wrote in to Straits Times Forum about the incident last year.
Where this horrible old man slapped me and i like yelled at him and stuff.
i don't know if it'll get published but if it does, it'll be pretty darn interesting!

Teenage Magazine, with the list of Teenage Icon Finalists AND the BIG model spread should be out by either next week or the week after.
So do look out for it, even though i look really bad and fat.
haha.

I'll be in PL this Wednesday! because my baby sister's getting her award!
ooh!
i'm sooo happy and proud for her(:

I wrote a really nice song, i think V would reallyyyy like it.
haha.
i'm off, but remember,
BIG is GORGEOUS

- xoxo
charis loves you
6:37 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.