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Monday, July 30, 2007

my baby sister's cooking dinner tonight as practice for her home ec practical.

Gawd i miss those times.
pfft.
shiyun and i were cooking partners and i'd say we were pretty damn good.
we'd experiment, mess up, laugh and we NEVER EVER argued about washing up.
i swear!

):
i miss shiyun, thinking of it.
HELLO SHIYUN SWEETHEEEEEART!
I MISS YOU MUCHOS MUCHOS!

anyway,
my baby sister's won an award from the school for Best in English and Literature for 2006.
i'm soooo freaking proud of her(:

The day's been incredibly relaxing,
minus the back and forth texting and knowing that he's gonna keep his distance,
which i really really don't want.

i was up at about half past two,
had cereal and upon mommy's return home,
White tea with scones. i love.

i hate having gorgeous story lines milling around in my head and not being able to find the time to sit down properly and spend time typing it all out,
and editing it and sending it in for a shot at getting it published.
seriously.

i know i know, i shouldn't be so lazy and at least attempt at producing the gist of the storyline in a short prose or something.
note the word attempt dears.

ANYWAY.
speaking of old school(okay i know it was a few paragraphs ago)
there's some typical school girl bitch fight going on.
and being just that little bit a part of it,
i'm thinking, i'll blog about it.
of course i'm taking into consideration,
should i use real names and stuff and just,
thinking.
And you know what i think? haha.
hell yea. i'm gonna use real names and dissdissdiss, bitchbitchbitch.

Huiying's my sister's friend.
and she blogged,in passing, about this girl called Amanda Jong.
a fat girl who's got a pierced tongue and gives people nightmares by flicking out her tongue to show off her piercing.
aww. aren't i a bitch when i don't even know this girl!

okay, so no one would really have given a droplet of shit about her
until she gets her beLLyKewLxZxZCLIQUE to "go and find" huiying.
Huiying, poor girl, actually removes the post!
oh gosh i think she ought to have left it up there because,
it's her blog at the end of the day.
She doesn't like someone, she can go right ahead and talk about her.

Spreading rumours and slanderous shit is a completely different thing of course,
but this is different. way different.

SO ANYWAY.
amanda Jong and her "gang" have been harassing huiying and trying to get her out to talk with them.
ooooh!
scaaaaaary.
obviously, they're throwing their weight about trying to be cool.

Well i told Huiying to ignore them because,
honestly?
I think it's just HILARIOUS to even imagine that.
HAHA.
can you imagine it?

fat girl and clique: "EH HUIYING. KNN CB. TINK EUU SHO KEWLS ARX. COME OUTSIDE TALK"
huiying just stares at them for about a full second and walks past them.

okayokay.
that's a bit much.
but i hate it when people act big.

worse still, she's already taken down the bloody post and they're not leaving her alone!
they've gone to her blog and spammed brainlessly with the limited vocab that they know;
hokkien swearwords!

i am coolios yo.
knn ccb.
mmmmm
very smart. come on doggy! roll over and drool!

geez.
what an utter embarrassment to Paya Lebar MGS!
and they say people like me brought them shame?
hello!
i'm not going around with a spazzing fat studded tongue and sticking it out every chance i get,
OR
threatening people and behaving like i'm ohsocoool.

pfft.

i left a couple of messages on huiying's tagboard myself.(:
so there.

i think if they want to look for her, go right ahead.
don't send her a message telling her to "come find" you.
1) you're not lost love. i know the school's huge now but you can get your mommy to find you
2) you want her, go get her.
okay, i know it's the oldest trick in the book.
you sit in the canteen, short pinafore over spread fat thighs til everyone can see your grotesque little hairs,
and you smile while other people gawk because you think that they fear you.
when in actual fact, they're getting nauseous seeing the lice under your skirt get comfortable.
You smile even more when this timid little girl comes up to your little group and you like the stares you guys are getting.
But actually, the stares are because they fear this timid little girl is gonna have your lice jumping onto her.

haha.

okayokay. so cool, so cool.
give it up already. it's so stupid.

i personally think that Huiying shouldn't be wasting her time worrying about this group of shitheads because she has much better things to do!
ie; yawn and laugh at them. OR fart in their faces.

MOVING ON TO MORE IMPORTANT THINGS
i just saw my name(and face which wasn't very pretty, being in School uniform and all)
on Youtube!
haha.
omg. what a surprise. it's just some lameass shit of course.
but it was funny, bringing back memories and i miss Richa Gill!

_______

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

go on and take my heart with you
go on,
because i don't mind playing the fool.
take the heart that lies within,
the one that beats for you
take it cos it's always been yours anyway.

- xoxo
charis loves you
6:35 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.