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Saturday, June 23, 2007

last night brought as much laughter and giggles as it did tears and pain.
excuse me while i tear my hair out.

i had incredible fun with paddy paddylicious(:
i do hope she had fun too

so mommy's not talking to me after i came home at a godforsaken hour.
i don't exactly blame her for being mad at me,
but still it's upsetting that she's doing this cold war thing.

i was left out of lunch,
and the last time i ate was like, yesterday's lunch.
and famous amos at seven i guess.
i've kinda dealt with my hunger pangs already, so never mind that.

i'm gonna come visit PL on mooondayyy!
can you guys pleasepleaseplease tag my board and leave your break timings!
i find myself quite a nuisance when i pester people for their break timings.

pfft.

okay so anyway, goodbye june hols and i'm really gonna start hitting the books.
i got 30/70 for my mid years' Chi paper 2,
and even though that isn't a pass, it's closer to a pass than i have ever been.
plus, the paper was incredibly hard okay!
so i've gotten this huge confidence boost, knowing that if i work harder, i could probably pass.
i should also probably get round to doing the homework alastair gave me,
problem is,
(alastair love, please don't get mad!)
i kinda forgot what it is i was supposed to do.

BUT FEAR NOT!
i will figure out what i need to do and do it
aye ass aye pee!
that's asap for you bimbos out there(:

ugh. some horrid song is playing on mtv.
it goes
this is why i'm hot and repeats for most of the song and has random random words fitted in just to rhyme with the word hot.
ugh.
ie;
this is why i'm hot
you ain't cos you're not

ah lao!
it doesn't take brains to write a song like that.
it's not even freaking rap.
urgh.
i hate no-talents):
boo you!

i'm more cynical than i'd like to be

xoxo

- xoxo
charis loves you
3:21 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.