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Sunday, June 10, 2007

meet my bestest best friend,
Bird.
(:
gosh how random is this eh?
i've been eating a lot of durian and it reminded me of her.
durian-fanatic.

i've only known her since p5,
which honestly isn't as long as vicky has known her or anna i suppose.
but still,
for some reason(which eludes even me)
she's my bestest best friend.

i think it's the way she looks at me
(out of her cute little eyes)
when she's giving her deep, thoughtful advice.
or the way we used to take turns to call each other every single night,
and even though we don't anymore,
it only takes five minutes for all that distance to disappear.

i think it's the way that we hardly talk,
definitely not everyday, not even every week,
and yet,
when i really really need her, she's always there.

it's the way she's able to speak sense into me.
and she's the only person who'll make me stop and think.

i don't think we use labels of best friends and close friends.
after all, there's hardly a difference.
but i'd like to say, and i do all the time anyway,
that bird's my best friend.
i don't think i am but it hardly seems to matter,
cos she's still terribly special to me(:

she's gonna be the Godma/Goddykepa
of my last two baby girls;
Maxine Danielle & Jemimah Elizabeth.
as you can see, the youngest daughter's middle name is named after her.
haha.

okay,
enough randomness about bird lah.
her ego's gonna get blown up.

my twinniest twinnie came over to church today!
i think she liked it,
i know i did(:
accompanied C to get her tattoo.
it's fucking nice! i like it sooo much!
hahah.

details another time.
me is belly tiwed!

night wite!

- xoxo
charis loves you
1:21 AM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.