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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

okayyy

SO
for once i'm not going on about him
it's just something i need to get off my chest

this person's really nice and all, and is quite a nice friend.
aneeewayyy,
this friend has been
zomg!dghwfhwoiefhihfhswghoghrgaef-ly
claustrophobic.

HELLO
i just got out of a relationship, and i mean,
the only person i don't have much of a problem telling my second-by-second actions is my ex.
and like.
gawd!

i mean,
this person's nice and all.
and a nice friend.
we're not tight
but suddenly i'm getting stuff like
"where are you now,"
"what're you doing"

ZOMG!
somebody help meeeeeeeeee!

i'm getting quite peeved with this, rather tiny matter
and i need like desperate help.
it's gawdfucking awful!

FUCK SIA!

okay, i just really needed to say that.
my ahlian side does show up once in a while.
or like, like every full moon!
like were-wolf style!
hahahahahahahaha

okay, shutup charis.
stop laughing at your own jokes about yourself

):

ANOTHER THING

now we all know how i don't really get pissed off that easily.
how i flash my bitch smile when asian friends/relatives declare how much weight i've lost/gained.
whatever
i have lost 7kg since march. YAY ME(:

i know i'm fat, and i don't really have a problem with people telling me that.
but
i do have a problem,
(this applies very much to Asians who have no social etiquette)
with people who tell me how much weight i've put on within the first 60 seconds of seeing me in like a whole year.

like WHATTHEFUCK.

ahlaooo!
i havn't seen you for a year and a half!
the least you can manage is a hello, right?

in these cases,
because i've grown so terirbly tired of them,
i would flash my bitch smile and go,
"really! i just lost 7kg!"

enough.

okay
i know this is incredibly small compared to vicky's recent case of a raving lunatic spamming her board and spazzing around.

BUT
some dumbass anon who watch the kids central show, tagged mommy's board saying
"lol. your daughter looks fat"

1)the camera adds ten pounds and no,
it's not just an excuse

2) well hello to you too dumbass. i'm not on tv for the next top model

fuck
it pissed me off
especially since i was just starting out a
letsgocrazyandstopeating diet.

it stopped midway between a
cryandthrowup feeling and a
getsopissedandthrowbitchfit feeling.

SO
being the darling that i was,
this is what i replied to anon:
to anon(if you ever come back here),
OMG!I KNOW I'M FAT but you really need to go
FUCK yourself so you'll feel better about yourself and
THUS, won't get such an incredible high from dissing people you see on tv!
ALL MY LOVE

UGH
cannot stand these people!

i think chris sounds like a dyke.
i hope my twinnie doesn't see this!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and if you do twin,
I LOVE YOU

- xoxo
charis loves you
1:17 AM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.