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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

i absolutely cannot,
and i do repeat, cannot stand people who say
"aiya, don't stress about O's LAH. i've been there done that

okay, so it wasn't said to me.
but it still fills me with such extreme annoyance that drives me to the point of ripping out their tiny head and stuffing it up their arse.

and DO YOU KNOW WHY?
because,
O level year is a crucial time for everybody.
everyone knows that prelims(at least in PL) are set doubly hard for everyone,
but it doesn't mean we should study less.
it doesn't make us smart that, because everyone says so,
we know O levels is nothing once we've got it over and done with.

the point is the here and now.
now, we will go through this hard, tough time leading to O levels
and we will not regret
we wouldn't in a million years, ever regret studying too hard for O levels,
because
what we would regret for sure, is not studying hard enough.

so you know what?
don't be a fucking smart alec telling O level takers that it's a piece of cake,
you didn't think so when you were going through that,
and that's probably the only reason why you had decent grades.

see,
i don't mind if people go;
"trust me, it isn't half as bad as they say it is. BUT study hard"
what i cannot stand is people who go
"oh it's nothing"
or worse still,
"aiyah, do badly for o levels, it's okay"

people like that ought to stick their heads in a toilet bowl and flush repeatedly three times.

there was a teacher i had once,
she was waiting for her A level results before she went to uni.
i was secondary three and we started freaking out about our O's in less than two years
DO YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID?!
"Oh trust me, trust me! O levels is nothing okay, absolutely nothing! once you get to A levels, now that's when you start worrying and mugging like crazy. you will have no life. but O levels is nothing"

a year on, now, i think she should die, no.
really.
i'm sure once we're hitting A levels,
she, having experienced the stress of uni would say
"oh trust me, O and now, A levels is nothing! when you get to uni..."

do you see what i mean?
does anyone get what i'm badgering on about?
of course, when you've pulled through something difficult, you'd look back and laugh.
but without a doubt, it was hard and will be for those who have yet to pull through it.
so keep your fucking trap shut.

GOODNIGHT WORLD
:DD
thanks for listening to my raaaaaaaaants.

- xoxo
charis loves you
1:48 AM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.