Sunday, April 08, 2007
i don't know whether to cry, or laugh out of relief, or at the absurdity of it all
sure,
you're a guy
and i'm not even your girlfriend
so i don't really have a right to start freaking out when you havn't contacted me at eleven at night
well, in my opinion
"i'm a guy" doesn't mean you're not gonna turn up dead in a ditch somewhere.
so no,
that reason doesn't quite work for me
i should shut up right about now
really, i don't know if i should cry or laugh
because, yea it is pretty silly if you think about it
and even though i don't need/deserve to know,
i guess i was hurt with the way you replied
oh but who gives a flying fuck, eh?
as promised,i ought to blog a bit about today's filming
it was fun
but i admit, i felt rather like i was "dressed in borrowed robes"
when they referred to me as
"famous" or a
"celebrity blogger".
Honestly speaking, til now i'm not quite sure what i was on the programme for.
haha
apparently sabs told victor that being linked to my blog generates publicity for other people.
that's not true okayyy!haha
i proceeded to tell him that i shall now remove his link!
oh the genius of me.
okay you know what,
frankly i can't blog right now.
the reason is simple:
i blog about whatever i feel and/or whatever's going on as of right now.
right now,
i'm upset because of what happened
of course, i should feel better because of what he replied me
and also because he called me up too.
but;
i'm sorry, i have to admit,
that though on one hand what he's said makes me feel just that tad bit better,
i'm upset.
feeling stupid about myself is one reason:
i'm not your girlfriend, i didn't deserve to know
and therefore i didn't have much of a right to text you what i did at 10.45.
'nother reason would be, what you replied me.
more that what you said, it got me thinking.
yea, what was my problem?
what was my problem?
part of me, at first,
just wanted to say
well don't bother anymore then.
but that's not being fair.
i think a big part of this,
is that right now i do, just feel stupid.
other than that, no
nothing's wrong
i'm fine.
just peachy
- xoxo
charis loves you
10:58 PM