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Thursday, March 08, 2007

Hello, darlin', nice to see you
It's been a long time
You're just as handsome as you used to be

How's your new love? Are you happy?
Hope you're doin' fine
Just to know means so much to me

What's that, darlin? "How'm I doin'?"
Guess I'm doin' all right
Except I can't sleep and I cry all night till dawn
What I'm trying to say is "I love you and I miss you"
"And I'm so sorry that I did you wrong"

Look up, darlin', let me kiss you
Just for old time's sake
Let me hold you in my arms one more time

Thank you, darlin', may God bless you
And may each step you take
Bring you closer to the thing you seek to find

Goodbye, darlin', gotta go now
Gotta try to find a way
To lose these mem'ries of a love so warm and true
And if you should ever find it in your heart to forgive me
Come back, darlin',
I'll be waiting for you

They all ask me how,
how could i?

i don't have an answer,
i just know,
that i hurt so deeply, one of the people i love most

The only man i've felt loved and cared about me,
the only man i've loved this much.

i'm sorry,
i'm so so sorry.

Yet i know that my sorrys will never, in a lifetime,
be enough.
never

as much as i know i don't deserve it,
i can't help wanting you,
to still want me back

goodbye darling,
gotta go now.

gotta try and find a way, to lose these memories
of a love, so warm and true

and if you should ever find it in your heart to
forgive me
come back darling, i'll be waiting for you

- xoxo
charis loves you
10:08 AM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.