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Thursday, June 01, 2006

til now it amazes me,
how time can pass so very very fast
one minute you're like this,
starting out,
carefully cutting class a little bit here and a little bit there
you can't wait for the end of your four years
and the next minute,
bam

you're fifteen and suddenly extremely aware of how the next year you'll be free of the from prison
but also extremely aware that with that comes your O levels
and what the teachers love doing is telling you how many months you have left til then

but hey,
guess what,
besides being in thee bestest class ever ever ever
i've had my buu with me since two years ago and she's still with me now(:

EH
we don't have ANNIVERSARY
we've been together for like three years already!
lets see, vicky's been my buu since
erm
january, february of 2004?

hey buu,
if we don't celebrate monthly we can AT LEAST celebrate our yearly anniversaries right?

SEE
we're looking for a sign=D

that was at Kbox

i think this is an extremely random entry
oh yes,
i started off acknowledging how fast time flies and see,
the most obvious thing is how long i've been with my buu
(even though she's never ever ever ever given me a sixth month present not to mention even a second year present.)
hmph

but anyway,
since this has already been so vickyfied
i'll do a special shoutout to her

vicky:
my dearest darlingest buu
you've been there for as long as i can remember
and thank you,
thank you for that.
i remember all the stuff we did way back then
i remember going out like every single fucking day
haha
i remember you, the smaller one,
standing up for me
even though no matter how much you stand up you'll always be smaller than me(:
i remember your first big party and our first kiss
i remember your i love yous
and i remember mine
i remember you drunk and i remember me drunk
and when i look at you now,
at myself now,
we've both grown
in more ways than one
you're taller, but you've grown stupider
(i'm kidding hon)

i love you i love you i love you buu

you'll always be my buu<3

- xoxo
charis loves you
12:20 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.