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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

i fear 3 out of 66 things!

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[ ] the ocean
[ ] pools
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] being sexually assulted
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] being punished
[ ] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[ ] snakes
[x] sharks
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] fear
[ ] being alone
[x] losing my friends
[ ] being blind to things
[ ] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] being murdered in my sleep

okayokay
out of point
so so sooo much has happened
that i forgot
haha

lets see
i'm ill today
but i'll be in school tomorrow

akira's Kavadi thing was bloody cool
it looked damn painful,
but it was still cool to watch it
especially up close
and someone i know too!
whee

he had to fast and everything before as well as after so,
i lift my cap to him
not that i wear a cap but that's besides the point

so anyway,
after school yesterday,
went over to Stacy's
i think her animals have this thing against certain smells

her very cute little puppy peed on me and the couch
after which,
val bit and scratched me
because she was scared and all and didn't really like the new arrival
i realize stacy's got lotsa pets

jo and bunnykins came over for dinner last night
last night's dinner was nice(:

im busybusybusy

i have a math test tomorrow
i have to an english practice
i have a chem prac next monday
i am ill and blur
i have to redo bird's birthday present
AND i have to take it to the shop and get it done ASAP
i am ill and blur
and i have to get the final thing i need to complete bird's birthday present
and i am ill and blur
and i realized for some odd reason i keep spelling birthday as
BORTHDAY

haha

i think i'm having a fever

i waaant my mummyyyyy

today was nice(:
it was very nice
but i still feel ill

i've got stretch marks that itch
ew
i need to lose weight
i'm going to try not to say a word for 24 hours sometime soon

because
well because when you shut up,
you hear a lot more

there's a bitch or two i have to deal with everyday
but then
that's life isn't it?

i've got essential oils for my aromatherapy smell in my very nice smelling room
wheeee
they smell very nice

i love i love i love

i'm sick
mummyyyyyy

I SAY ELLIE YOU SAY STARE

ELLIE

stare!

ELLIE

stare!

elliestare

whee

haha

okay nevermind

i miss alastoooooore
he's on a daaaateee
without meeeee

i blame my whiny-ness on me being sick

i love you,
i love you more than you can ever imagine
and i always will
i do stuff sometimes,
all in the name of venting or destressing,
stuff that might hurt you
and make you think that you don't matter at all to me
stuff that might make you feel this relationship doesn't mean anything

but it's not true,
really it's not.

leave,
if you'll be happier
but still,
i'll keep on loving you

- xoxo
charis loves you
6:20 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.