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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

We do not inherit the Earth from our ancestors. we borrow it from out children

this is what we were talking about yesterday in assembly

honestly,
before this,
my thinking about the world and about it heating up and eventually causing icebergs to break off and drown the whole world,
was really,
nothing
i felt the world would come to an end anyway so it wasn't wrong to help it along.

but along with the speech and stuff,
a bible verse supported everything.
like, basically God had put us man in charge of this world.

i figured that this world isn't ours,
it's HIS.
we ought to return it to him just like,
or even better than when he put us in charge over it.
we were given responsibility for every single living creature and we should look after every creature as well as this world we're stuck on right now.

everyone start using Lampe Burger instead of candles!

oh yes,
my phone got stolen yesterday as well as Calista's which ann na had given to me to look after.
but in the end my phone was found
in the toilet according to my mom?
i guess it was too old and redundant to be kept

anyway,
today was nice.
no math.
chatted with doralynn for that period

cup noodle party at Vick's after school while watching Scary Movie 2.
i swear i've never watched anything more stupid

had gone shopping with vicky at ntuc after school.
it was bloody effing funny
the damned umbrella kept suddenly POPPING open
oh gawd.
haha

and we were falling all over the place laughing
and we wanted to ram the trolley into people's butts.

i swear,
being with vicky really makes you laugh so much you pee in your undies.

lovely lovely day all in all

oh yes,
it was ruined.

i don't like being hated for no apparent reason
i absolutely can't stand it
i'm okay if im hated or not liked because,
well just because or because someone doesn't like how i look.
anything's better than, apparently,
no reason.

and i think it's stupid if a friend demands to know when where and how you got a girlfriend/boyfriend
and then gets upset when she feels she's the last to find out and claims the whole school knows and actually implies that maybe it's because i've been handing out information about my love life like they're free condoms or some fucking shit

upon her getting mad at the friend who didn't give her immediate updates on his love life, she blames me.
oh yes,
it's all my fault.

and well,
i thought that was unfair because i thought she was a really nice sweet pretty girl.
believe it or not,
i smiled in her direction whenever i saw her,
i wasn't a bitch in any way
and you know what?
apparently her distaste of me "has been from the very beginning"

okay,
talking about it gets me worked up all over again.
so shut up charis,
shut up.
besides,
i'll be bitching about it anyway.
and i wouldn't want that girl to end up getting hurt.

dear friends, you don't really have to ask what's going on. you probably don't understand.
i'll tell you(:
a girl needs to bitch to vent.

oh yes.
i don't like CC
and she knows it.
and today i told her to shutup.

haha
funny,
the two above girls mentioned are in the same cca
okay,whatever

it's crucial i go to school on thursday.
and i've got stuff on tomorrow of great importance too.
after school stuff,
so.

WOW
maybe this'll be my first week where i'm in school
ALL FIVE DAYS(:
wheeeee

TO MY DEAREST DARLINGEST BABY BUUUUU:
THANK YOU THANK YOU THAAAAANK YOU FOR THAT GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS MIRROR YOU GAVE ME!
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT
AND I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!

yes, i am definitly honoured to have as a present to me, my baby buu's very FIRST 3d artwork(:

<3

i'm gonna eat an apple to destress

- xoxo
charis loves you
9:45 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.