Tuesday, January 03, 2006
i felt the nakedness of my finger,
but i could hear the tinkling of the ring and the tiny teddy bear inside it with each movement i made.
i missed the morning messages though i do admit,
but then again,
somehow my mind wasn't on that as i found myself thinking about the excitement of starting school again,
whether or not i was gonna be late,
and how i'd be helping my sister adjust to secondary school life.
or trying to help.
so lots and lots of talktalktalk by big bird,
i liked ms gan's talk though,
she's so cute!
i missed him during class,
and i found myself thinking of him,
if he was awake yet,
what he was doing.
it was already 10.56am,
had he met up with her yet,
was he having fun,
how come i don't get a morning message,
so maybe he's not up.
whatever.
so typically me.
so being so typically me,
i text him and get a three word reply.
okay,
i decide at that point,
concentrating on something else.
it wasn't so bad after that though,
it wasn't til i after school that i felt that ache in my stomach,
or maybe my tumtum was feeling empty.
wasn't til i saw everyone else that i felt that pang of not having someone there.
bird, hooking up with rach and walking downstairs,
dory waiting for someone,
it mightn't have been her girlfriend but yeaa well,
and ann na,
so fast outta the classroom you couldn't have noticed she'd disappeared.
well,
actually that horrid pang came first as we seated ourselves for the discipline talk.
our class was next to demelza's so obviously she swapped seats so she'd be beside dory.
and inside i'm just like
awwwwww! it's so adorable!i mean,
they weren't like holding hands or touchy feely, lovey dovey,
but there was something there that you could feel.
and you just think it's so so sweet.
and i look to the person beside me,
my dear look-alike twin who probably also misses someone dearly.
haha.
silly me.
but oh,
it just felt like that.
to know how i feel,
imagine walking down your highschool hallway,
and you see all these really sweet couples,
leaning against lockers talking,
holding hands and walking,
or girlfriends gossiping
and jocks jerking around as always.
and you're alone as you walk down the hallway.
yes,
all alone.
and you know your own special someone's out there,
but that special someone isn't there,
right there with you,
isn't holding your hand,
and doesn't have an arm around you.
yeap.
that's how it feels.
- xoxo
charis loves you
10:57 PM
peeeeektooores!(: