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Monday, August 29, 2005

mr mystery

you wouldn't see him at first,
he's in the shadows.
your eyes would automatically focus themselves on where the spotlight is on.
then after a while they'd wander to the person moving about most on stage,
then they'd go to the one playing the loudest,
up front,
closest to the edge of the stage.

you'd cast a glance at him in the shadows,
playing almost to himself,
then you'd go back to the person closest to the edge of the stage.

but strangely,
there'd be something about him,almost drawing your eyes back to him again.
and from there,
your eyes would never leave him.
he would seem to keep to himself,
the one who breaks the rules unintentionally and without anyone really realizing it.

you can't seem to get him to open up to you,
can't seem to get him to smile,
the only time he ever seems happy is when he's playing on stage.

he's the kind of guy a girl can imagine waking up beside in the morning,
under the sheets.
he'd be quiet though,
not really into talking.
and he'd get out of bed mumbling something about getting to work.
you'd be left there,
alone and feeling used though he might not have really meant you to feel that way.

the kind of guy many girls probably go crazy over but his closed personality leaves them wondering why, and if it's because of them.
it's not though,
it's just him.

don't assume as a reader please.
i have no more than a friendship with him.
for all you know he might not even exist.

- xoxo
charis loves you
6:16 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.