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Sunday, May 08, 2005

i am overwhelmed with a tremendous sense of satisfaction.
ah,
at last everything's set and done inclusive of gorgeous gorgeous song .
how could i possibly not have it?
moves me to tears everytime .
now i sound like some sappy,lovesick person .

i liked my old blog .
i loved the layout .
it was so me .
but i decided it was time for a change .
i shan't say goodbye to it though,
there's too much in it to remember .
too many poems i have in no other place .
to many tears shed as i've typed out frustration and hurt .
too much emotion in that blog which lasted what,
a year?
whatever .
too much of it to say goodbye .

i like this layout .
i find it awfully sweet .
a bit more feeling in it compared to my old one .
ohh yes,
and the other one didn't have any archives which was what made me finally decide to come up with something new .
i think i must've accidentally deleted it while changing layouts and stuff .
well,
only i can read back on my old posts in that other blog .
if you missed it,
you missed it .
hah .

shan't put a tagboard because,
well i wouldn't say i find it pointless,
but honestly,
this blog is for me to air my views and for you to read it if you'd like to .
i don't have to have you leaving a message,
good or bad
nice or horrid .

either ways,
i know you love me .
haha .
til next time .

selemat malam .goodnight .
or wait .
maybe it should be selemat pagi because it's like,in the morning now .haha .
sorry,
i'm absolutely taken by this wonderful language i'm learning .

i bid thee goodnight .

- xoxo
charis loves you
7:00 PM

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only yours baby

i'm charis vera Ng,
i'm NOT a Singaporean, i was born in UK
but i spent most of my four years in scotland
i love alastair(:
i'm doing my best to live for God though i often fail miserably

ok,try this:
you're this girl who's flown over to this country when you're no more than four years of age
you resent your dad for it,
and it doesn't help when things between your parents don't work out either.

so you miss your home terribly,
you miss going strawberry-picking,
you miss eating boiled eggs out of egg-cups
and you miss warm and cuddly Uncle John and Aunty Esther.

instead,
you find yourself forced to change
and adapt in a horribly hot place
where in primary school,
you meet cold,heartless little kids who ignore you and don't let you play "family"
just cos your accent is different.
early on,
you get weird looks and you find yourself going for recess breaks alone.
your classmates complain to the class teacher when you call them stupid
because they don't understand what to you is simple english.
but they leave you alone when you call them an imbecile
because they don't know what it means.
your primary 1 & 2 class teacher takes joy in complaining to your mummy
because she detests you.
she detests you for constantly correcting her english grammer and pronunciation in front of the class
you soon realize that you can actually gain and keep friends upon them finding out your mother's an actress
but by that time you've more or less forced yourself to lose your accent which makes communication a lot easier anyway.

that was the little girl charis,
now,
on top of that,
i can be a total biotch sometimes, towards people.
and don't tell me you aren't sometimes please.
but i try my very best not to bitch about people.
im a dangerous shopper(=
i never know what i want or need til i see it.

i don't like television.
now that's a first innit?HAH.
bet you never knew someone who didn't like tv
well i don't
and i'm not trying to be different and difficult
it's noisy and boring
i like music:)
i find eating a chore but i love snacking
figure that out
i find certain kinds of pain addictive,
no, i promise i'm still sane.

which is actually pretty remarkable for someone living here,
in this time and place
where you normally get loads of homework,
tests with questions that look like they're in foreign language,
and where everything's a competition to be the best,
the prettiest,
the most popular,
the most hated,
the thinnest,
the fattest, the coolest
the list goes on.
one shouldn't try to be something you're not,
but everyone knows that's easier said than done.
like duurh.